Well it must be said, life sure has a lot of twists and turns. A few years ago I got rid of most of my 'self-help' books, but today I find myself delving into books by Beattie, Mellody, Holmes, Foxx, trying to pull myself out of a codependency relapse. So be it, I'll do the work...and work it is.
     I'm not sure what this has to do with Autumn. Just the other day I walked across the yard to my neighbors and on the way back I realized the air felt like Autumn. It's only the middle of August and we have had very little warm weather for the period of time we call Summer. In my last post I was talking about the Summer Wind so I looked on Youtube for a song about Autumn. I found it. Autumn Leaves. I'll post it below.
     I'm not ready to prepare for winter but autumn signals the need for it.
Right around the corner is September. The month Bruce was killed in Vietnam. September is bitter/sweet and here I am...searching once again for the real me. I guess that is normal if we allow ourselves the changes necessary for growth. Things become unfamiliar and it is possible to feel lost. Sometimes I feel like I am not accomplishing anything and nothing is 'happening' but experience has taught me that those are the very times something good is about to happen. I know the steps I am taking to better myself are leading me in the right direction further up the mountain. I will find my way and the stones of uncertainty, fear, and reluctance...I will cast down on the path to use as stepping stones.
     The changes within reflect the changes without and vice a versa. I can look forward to a new season within as well as without. It is as it is.
     The song Autumn Leaves made my tears surface. As I closed my eyes to listen, the song was also making my soul dance.